Thursday, December 20, 2007

It's only been three weeks

It has been three weeks today since the D&C. Three weeks.....and I am acting as if everything is fine. I haven't been pregnant for three weeks. Guess what, I'm am not okay.

Today was supposed to be our first ultrasound appointment. I should be celebrating with my husband the sound of our baby's heartbeat. I should have pictures to show the family at Christmas. And I don't. I fell a part last night. I couldn't stop crying.

I need to stop pretending that everything is okay when it's not. I am not sure what to say when friends or family ask me how I am doing. Do I tell them, "I am not okay and I think it's going to be awhile until I am." This is a long nightmare I am waiting to wake up from. Although, when I do wake up, I still won't be pregnant.

2 comments:

Cathy said...

Lesley warned me that this may happen. It's partly your hormones fluxuating, it's mostly just plain painful emotionally. But this
WILL pass, she promises. I love you very much.

Mommie

Cathy said...

Lesley warned me that this may happen. Partly it's your hormones fluxuating. Mostly it's just plain painful emotionally. But you WILL get through this! I love you very much.

Mommie