It has been three weeks today since the D&C. Three weeks.....and I am acting as if everything is fine. I haven't been pregnant for three weeks. Guess what, I'm am not okay.
Today was supposed to be our first ultrasound appointment. I should be celebrating with my husband the sound of our baby's heartbeat. I should have pictures to show the family at Christmas. And I don't. I fell a part last night. I couldn't stop crying.
I need to stop pretending that everything is okay when it's not. I am not sure what to say when friends or family ask me how I am doing. Do I tell them, "I am not okay and I think it's going to be awhile until I am." This is a long nightmare I am waiting to wake up from. Although, when I do wake up, I still won't be pregnant.
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Lesley warned me that this may happen. It's partly your hormones fluxuating, it's mostly just plain painful emotionally. But this
WILL pass, she promises. I love you very much.
Mommie
Lesley warned me that this may happen. Partly it's your hormones fluxuating. Mostly it's just plain painful emotionally. But you WILL get through this! I love you very much.
Mommie
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