Thursday, February 28, 2008

I Hate That Miscarriages Exist

It makes me so sad and so angry. Why does this type of loss exist? It's designed to rip the hopes and dreams and excitement out of underneath you. One moment you think everything is great and you are looking forward to the little miracle happening in 9 short months. Then it's gone.

I am sad this happens to so many women. I am sad that this happened to me. I am sad to hear of all the women you could relate to me when I shared the news of our loss.

I am angry that this changed my life so much. I am angry for those who have had this happen to them more than once. I am angry at the fear of this happening to me again. I am angry at the possibility that this could happen to someone else close to me or even to someone I don't know. I am angry at how often this happens

I wish I could understand this more. I wish I could understand the anger and sadness I feel right now. I wish I could stop crying about this. I wish I wasn't so angry about it.

I want to understand this better but no matter how hard I try, I am more angry and sad in the end.

I wish miscarriages did not exist.

4 comments:

Lynda said...

i hate it too.

but i'm finding a lot of comfort in reading all of these blogs. i came across one link on the nest boards and it's led me to so many beautiful ladies who are going through/have gone through the same thing.

it'll be one week tomorrow since we found out there was no hb. i had a d&c the same day. i should've been 11 wks based on lmp but was only measuring 8wks 3 days.

i'm glad i've found you and others.

Lynda said...

i hate it too.

but i'm finding a lot of comfort in reading all of these blogs. i came across one link on the nest boards and it's led me to so many beautiful ladies who are going through/have gone through the same thing.

it'll be one week tomorrow since we found out there was no hb. i had a d&c the same day. i should've been 11 wks based on lmp but was only measuring 8wks 3 days.

i'm glad i've found you and others.

Lynda said...

doh. sorry for posting more than once. i just noticed that comments must be approved! i apologize for not seeing that glaring banner the first time!

Anonymous said...

I as well had a miscarriage about a week ago. I read your blog and everything you say or feel is exacting the way I feel. I have read other's blogs and its the same thing. We are all going through the exact same thing. Hurtful words, emotions, things we see that upset us. I am so sorry for your lost and I pray that you will have a successful second pregnancy.